woohooooo !!!

am back ... alive and kickin' ...that's all ... nothing can stop me ....

there was a conflict between me and you but someday you'll understand ...

oh well.... move on GAGA ... haven't i told you that i have a new nick name, courtesy of Alvin Koh and made popular by Suhaila, Terry, Aspa and Eyon ... only Farhana still call me Madge :)
hahah..... funny how everyone starts to call me with that name ...

one of the crew asked my colleague; "there's a new FAE by the name Gaga" ... she said nothing ... and laugh .... LOL !!!

after all the drama for about a week ... it finally ended with me being stronger and better !!! yay !!!

hapy happy happy !!!!

how could an angle break my heart...

after much not so good feeling last week ... i've finally found out the reason why ... another heart breaking moment.... i thought that i've built enough walls and fences to protect my heart ... but i was totally wrong ... it hits me again ... kind a bad this time ... don't know what to say ... thanks to all who stood up by me ... i hate this part right here ... but like most people said time heals and tells ...

not a place to be ....

time check ... 0123 am ... am still not sleeping and don't know what to do ... am trying to pull myself together and finish all of my work but unable to think or do anything ... have no idea on what phase am going through right now ... am not here nor there ... don't feel like anything ... not sure what i want ... maybe resigning is all i need ... or a damn long break ... just got back from Japan again ... a long trip where i was suppossed to relax and finish all of my work but failed to do so ... i have no idea why ... am going insane .... i really don't know what to do ... is there any medications for this ... have no idea too !!! help !! S.O.S. !!!!!!!!!!!

what the hell is wrong with me !!!!! if this continues by end of this week ... am gonna do big changes to my career ... resigning ... 3 months notice or maybe 24 hours ...