Friday, June 08, 2007

here's my confession......

when i've decide to move to kk, all i wanted was a fresh start.
free frm boyfriend issues, just back to my old "orginal self".
I gave up everything that i had in kl....things that i've worked so hard to get.
Things changed....with a twist......

On this particular penang to kk flt i met this guy. Guess what what my mum was on board as well.
Flt was not full so i reserved the last row, port side seats for my mum. During boarding i mobilized in the cabin instead of standing infront. Then came this guy n he wanted to have the seat so i said that he can have the aisle seat. My mum came in and seated next to the window.I didn't quite pay attention to the guy at first.
During sales i've offered some food for my mum and off course to the guy as well. After the sales i've offered some biscuits to my mum n being typical malay i've offered some to him as well. Courtesy lah kot...
One thing that i've noticed was he would smile every time i passed by him and every time i tlked to my mum he would look at me....
Then he gave me this particular sign language asking for my phone number.Off course without mym mum looking. Anyway after the flt i forgotten about him and staraight away went to fetch my mum at the arrivel hall. my mum said that the guy that was sittting besides him was asking a lot of questions about me. huh!.....................
I went to the office after fetched my mum and that was when i switched on my hp. There it was, an sms frm him....i didn't stop there, we continued smsing for the rest of the day and he even sent me his pics and asked for mine as well.He totally gone crazy for me and even called me couple of times. This continues until today....Gosh he's nice and very ok looking lah....suka lah kan...after couple of days doin' our routine, he told me that he came back to kk because he wanted to engage. wow....what is this...he even asked for my permission to be with his fiance' for couple of days and kept on saying how sorry he was. He wanted to continue the relationship with me at the same time......mak confused kejap...nie mcm cinta 17 thn nie....rasa mcm dah tua nak go through all these things......he's 29.........just perfect for me what..........................
He said that he didn't expect to meet me .....
Questions : why do i do things that will hurt me, why do i like him?
I guess that the more we're trying to run frm falllin' in ...love will haunt us.....
Things that we thought we can deal with it....we failed. Hopes for past experience buried.
If my real frens are around.........gila nie.....don' wanna hurt again...but why this.........................
He's engaged, gonna get married...where willll i be.......................
Like he said we're fated to mett each other......mcm mana tu....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
P/s:- for dear frens nak tgk gambar tu nanti akak mms k....kalau nak lah