selamat hari raya aidil adha....

i'm writing this down at about 3am just to wish all muslim, selamat hari raya aidil adha. It's special for me this year as my aunty and cousin are here. Normally, me and mum would travel back to penang to celebrate. For my mum, aidil adha is always special as it is my birthday. well, not really, i was born on dec 1st and this year aidil adha is on the 27th nov. Little that we all know that 33 years ago(ok i'm old, i get it) my birth date and aidil adha were on the same day. So my mum was cooking and all for me and for our small family to eat. Tomorrow, after prayer ( yes i do that once in a while, so jangan kutuk or laugh ok) i'll be leaving to bangkok for my little gateway. Not that i really wanna go as my family is here but this is the only time that i can actually have a good rest before next year. It's gonna be a very busy year i think. So, no MELBOURNE as well this year. Next year or maybe this year end. Never know rite? anything is possible. Expect a lot of stories from bangkok as i'm going there alone ( james is sick so he can't go). I wanna go there and come back with a clear mind and hopefully manage to make decisions on what my future will be... another changes in career at other companies overseas, or go back flying. It's more of a decision that will make me happy in the near future. so there you go, i'll see you lots soon....

posh;- i only have one life to live and i wanna make it a happy ones.....

my mantra ... for life ...

hiding.............

so today is sunday and i'm not working... thinking about coffee and cheese cake....delish....

i'm writing in today on the issue of hiding, closeted, and denial... or whatever you may call it. The fact that there are so many gays out there and the fact that not everyone wanted to come out as they will only come out to play. here are my stories...

Fact 1

this particular person, doesn't look that gay but criticized others for being one... sounds homophobic but every night secretly, he himself is a cock loving sucker .... mind my word here

point taken :- we understand that you are scared as shit to come out but please don't criticized others for being one. Hey! i know where do you play !!!

Fact 2

doesn't have any gay qualities at all besides being handsome and tanned...hahaha met him at one of the "playground" ... he didn't recognized me off course... was in my shorts, pink t-shirt and glasses .... heheh but it's ok 'cause he just wanted it to be that way ....

Lesson:-

for whatever reason that you wanted to hide, go ahead ... "just don't pretend to hate us when you are one of us"

my condolence to those who had to be in the closet, get married with a girl and pretend to be happy due to social obligations... pity ....you know who you are !!!

posh:- i'll be out soon for coffee and cheese cake...

and he's BI !!!!

you all know that i've been a great fan of Duncan James of boy band BLUE... had a crush on him... ok ok i know he's not asian .... sorry BB just a crush (you know who you are and i'll be in BKK soon ) not quite recent he declared that he's a BI..so i have a chance when i'm London hahaha... he had a child from his previous relationship... with a girl off course... hmmmm what a relief ...

so forget about Duncan for a while... i'm off today and been thinking about going out with frens for coffee and all .... we'll see about that later ...

P/S: can't wait for my leave...a long one ...

and i...

Firstly, i'm so tired 'cause i've just got back form search

and rescue training.

Thrown into the the sea and all...but it was all fun...

it was in Langkawi...

for four days....

suddenly i came across this video, a madonna's party at

Siam Paragon in Bangkok. I couldn't believe that i've

actually missed it and

didn't know about it...i could have flown there.....

Paragon is just like my play

ground whenever i'm in Bangkok...and none of my friends inform

me about the party....arrrggghhhh.......

but i'll be there this November end

to visit my friends.... hope they'll be another

Madonna's party...

if not..i'll be so so so sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p/s : I love Bangkok!!!

way too long....

girl power runs the family

with my mum and aunty at my cousin's house

cousin sis and our little cousin

playing fireworks....illegal ?

i know the fact that since i last blog about myself was way too long... i'm kind a stuck or glued to my work.... ok there was "raya" and family get together and all ... there were so many cousins that i've never met ... and even until today, i don't even remember their names .. or their faces... my mum has a big family, hence so many cousins.... the trip back to Penang was all tiring and was all about family and food... been eating too much... way too much.... so i don't know what else to write here except that i 'm no longer inspired by Carrie Bradshaw to write .... or maybe the fact that as human, we only write when we are feeling down or has something to fall upon into ....

R u an AllStar ???

last Monday i attended a little staff AllStar gathering. Had much much fun but not too much as i was still tired from my trip to Krabi. It was all about us, staff of AirAsia. Like you don't know where i work !!! Duh !!! lots of food n lots of drinking but i wasn't high at all.... maybe i need something stronger... I'm currently enjoying my 3 days off and I've been trying not to open a single e-mail nor thinking about work.... I'm still trying though .... Just in case you wanna know what I'm doing, please follow me on twitter...as i said twitter for the better ... ok lots... until next time be happy and be ..... yeah whatever you wannabe ...

kisses

rain XOXO

.....KBV....that's Krabi for you.....

ok i've just got back from KBV in Thailand ...it was actually a meeting between all three countries... namely Malaysia, Thailand and Indonesia. It was all fun as we had the chance to get involve with all sort of activities. The best part was being able to meet all of my friends from ASEAN. hmmm now that's all over.... i'm gonna miss all of them dearly ... other than, that i've been busy and tired. I need a short break before going full force on work again. I'm hoping for another Bangkok trip or Jakarta... perhaps ... so just enjoy some of the beautiful pics ( if not funny) that i've got from there... enjoy your weekends all......

celebration?

the whole BKI hub gang

James was kind enough to accompany me

well, not quite a celebration.... i've been **** ( busy) yet again.... in between i've managed to attend a friend wedding. Hmmm... and it was early last month... work as usual...have meeting in Krabi next week plus more and more interview... what can i say? it's all about work though i'm trying to relax and be in a control for a bit ..... i've learnt when to say no and when to say that i need to stop and a take a step back .... it's all about managing my time.... finally after more than a year in this position i can finally say that i'm comfortable with my current postion... though i still enjoy flying... i think .... but what can i say .... gotta move on .... until next time ... not quite sure when will i be writing again .... hehehe ... an i'm getting fat ... help.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tired from a short break ....

Finally me and my cousin sister decided to go to LANGKAWI instead of BANDUNG in Indonesia.... we'll consider Bandung next time... so there was nothing much as the trip was actually to bring my mom and my aunty for a short holiday ... it was worth it for them but was tiring for me as i had to drive around the island... pheww.... it was all about shopping, visiting places and eating... way too much eating .... so tomorrow i'm back to work ... hmmm...so lazy to think about it ... ok about Langkawi... love the beach and yes the trip to the tip of "gunung mat cincang" ( mountains) was scary though the view from the top was amazing... the cable car was scary ...was more scary than the one in Genting Highlands..... lucky the bridge that connect the two mountain was closed otherwise my cousin sister would surely wanted to go there.... i'm scared of heights you know!!! but not when i'm flying ..... hehehe so where have you all been to lately .... i'm heading to BALI in August for the delayed meeting ..... hahaha wish me luck guys...

P/S:Langakawi is in Malaysia... you can fly direct to Langkawi from Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia or from Changi, Singapore with AirAsia .... hehehe

if only.....

ok here we go again...it's mid year now...have you all achieved your dreams? mine ...yess...not all... the one that i haven't achieved is .... to get a bf....why ? 'cause i don't even bother to date or have time to go out for one... hmmm that's a fact !!!! can't help it.... my work is like my bf my bff and all.... if you guys get what i mean... time is bad noe... economic wise but i'm such a lucky person.... being able to have a good job, a career that is... i can't have it all... am busy with my working life all the time hence my private life is on fire... meaning that i 'm not seeing anyone at all... kind a desperate here... serious... wish there's more than 24 hours per day ... that will never happened...rite???? i've got 2 trips planned next month... a family trip to Bandung over in Indonesia and another trip is to Bali.... my Bali trip is actually a meeting!!!! hahha so there you go.... i'm kind a tired at times as i keep going on and on and on ....